What the f*ck am I doing?

Think of this post as me talking to myself, in a time where a lot of the stuff I thought was important now feels different. The internet is not what it used to be. Something about it changed. It's either the AI or the inflation of content, or I'm not sure. The average reader does not look for content or use content in the same way he did before.

So I'm writing this post as if I'm in therapy, and I don't really give a fuck about adding value to the average. But I do remember a time when this is the kind of content I used to see a lot. And by the way, this is not AI-written. That would defeat the purpose of this writing. At least in my opinion.

I recently left my job, without a coherent plan of what I'm doing next. This was quite a shock for some of my work peers and family. "But what are you gonna do next? Have you looked at the job market?" "Did you try at least to see if there's a way to stay in your job and do something else?" I got these repeatedly. But the ones who knew me closer did not push back and were kinda happy for me.

I don't really have anything bad to say about the place I worked. I think the fit wasn't there from the start. And I won't get into the details of what made me leave.

I've been on the fence for about six months before I left. And unfortunately, something bad in my life had to happen for me to realize I need to take that step. A bit of a cliche, I know, but that's just life.

Being the way I am, I couldn't just sit without doing anything. So I started building PostPeer with my friend. Things are moving fast, and I'm looking forward to seeing how it turns out. Honestly, it's moving faster than I thought. Getting intimidated by it is a good thing.

But in the same breath, I have no idea what I'm doing. Am I an entrepreneur now? This is just a phase. And how the fuck am I going to make money? Moving to the far east is not an option.

When I get in that plonter, I usually find it helpful to imitate my friend's attitude. Lighten things up. It's not like I have a real problem here. It's mainly overthinking. I'm trying to find a solution for problems I don't have.

And still, by force of habit, which I don't like, but it's there. There's that little voice in my head saying, "What the fuck am I doing?"

Everything is always easier in hindsight. Making the decision in real time is tough. I left my job because I felt like I don't have a choice anymore.

I hope someday I will look at this short piece and think of it and laugh. I also hope that in the coming years, AI will not make writing like this obsolete. Because this is the part where automating it is not worth it.

Until then, keep learning and keep building.